I figured now would be a good time to start one of these. I have wanted to for awhile, but had no reason. Until now that is, lol.
So the reason: The trying time it is, and has taken us with trying to grow our own little family.
At the moment it has been 30 months, 30! MONTHS! I thought it would happen with out another thought about it. So things haven't went as planned and never will when it comes to reproduction. I have dealt with this OK until recently. I thought I was good, but my body isn't dealing with the stress well. (let alone the new job and the stress with that) My Chrones Disease has been flaring and causing pain, not a good memory with all the pain in my past.
So since the body is now telling me I am stressed, I am not as positive as I have been. Patience is a virtue is what I have been living by and I am officially out of patience! The "time frame" that we had planned is now years in the past. The baby stuff that I have received or bought is in the attic collecting dust and possibly even getting eatin' by moths. I have stopped buying things for our future child, I have cut back on what I buy for my Nephews and Nieces (and for those that know me that's just unheard of).
I have become a downer and that isn't what I am. I think you should always see the glass as half full. With our situation the glass seems to have a hole in it because it seems to be losing water.
And to our future (however or whoever that brings) I yearned for you, cried for you and couldn't have desired you more. You will bring what is best for us.
Emily
